Saturday, May 06, 2006
my family sucks . my sch sucks . my class sucks . LIFE SUCKS !!!!
i really feel miserable . and everything is so unfair to me .
im just so tired of putting up a brave front .
i dont know wht to do . i dont know how long can this continue . feel so helpless .
super annoyed with my parents - mum kpkb-ing eversince she got home . dad changing channels when im enjoying the show . FUCK . told me to respect his choice .
WTF i was there watching since 4.30 can . 'RESPECT' isnt fit to be used on him . NOT AT ALL . call me childish whtever HE DOESNT DESERVE IT .
he's damn male chauvinist . he thinks women are under his feet . he thinks he has the brain and he's great . he thinks he's capable . he's always right . HE'S JUST A STUPID ARROGANT SELF-CENTRED PEABRAIN FELLA . often wondered why and how my mum puts up with him . i'll rather not marry if i have a husband like him .
ahma was hospitalised but i didnt visit her . got discharged today but didnt call her tho im being told to . wht for .
even if i do, its gonna be so fake . i dont want .
aftr all these years she hasnt done anything of a grandmother shld do .
i dont feel like im a kin to her .
dad says without ah ma theres no him and no me . i'll rather it be this way so tht i wont be here .
then i wont be having a family full of hypocrites and backstabbers, who despises me very much cus of some bao-to bitch aunt i have .
friends i have plenty . but true friends ? question mark . i feel a gap between me and peiyu now . or isit i haven been putting much effort .
wondering how well i know her . or she dont know wht i want or vice versa .
cant help it thinking this way .
just feel tht her temper is so unpredictable .
seems to be endless quarrellings for us and sometimes im just not myself ard her .
sorry to say tht .
screeeeeeaming at 10:14 PM
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