its just barely a month but evrything came tumbling down like nobody's biz
this is how much <30days can affect a person, psychologically .
i fucking hate myself for the indecisiveness that caused so much misery
why cant i stop contemplating for ONCE ?
damn this whole bloody thing, im such an asshole =(

i hate myself .
hair face figure brain dressense practically just evrything .

i wondered and wonder .
why's evrything turning against me, why aint i feeling good ?
churn me out of this vicious cycle please, i want 2006 to turn back
dont rob me of my friends figure passion youth mhy-ed and whats yes .

happy-go-luckys isnt all the time .

eyecandy, eye-candied .
fast lah, HAHAHAHAHA =D

today started real bad but ended well .
tanning ice cream vball are loves
more to come soooooon yo ! ((:

music: runaway - avril lavigne

its a fake to say im alright aftr catching a glimpse of his profile which i shldnt had .
and i still cant bring myself to delete em .
dammit i ought to be shot stoned minced and grilled !

words are fattening so i CANNOT eat them
no wonder im fat lah ='(

months of struggles and hell .
all these shits really shld be put to an end .
emotionally had are and will be .

trust me baby, i swear i wont eat my words this time (:

walauuuuuuu screw the whoever stalker who did this !
aaron told me im on sgGIRLS.com and i went huh ?
so this is it :



no this is so total unglam please .
and this person cant even spell my name correctly WTFFFF .

im back from camp !
and really thankgod i went, i didnt regret cus i seriously had sooooo much fun !
it was kinda impromptu decision to go cus initially i told eve tht i wont be gng but aftr a slp my brain changed its mind .
7pm was the reporting time but it was alr 6.48pm when i woke up and i havent pack a single clothe, so you could guess what time i reach there =D

blahblahblah and volleyballllll the list goes on, so much fun excitement and what not . sorry i cant disclose much . many things were learnt and friendship made . though moodswings were unpreventable aftr rcving the msg, but i managed to pull it through . im sorry i didnt reply, my heart just sank and i literally broke into tears .

did the high element rope thingy i did back in sec2 adventure camp and the exact scenario repeated, just tht the process was abit shorter . i screamed yelled shouted and the vibrating mode started automatically cus it was damndamn high plus shaky whtever horror you could experience . ohmygoodness can somebody imagine the horrified weak heart accelerating pathetically with the blend of screams?!?! thts definitely gonna be the ugliest moment for me but memorable for the rest =/

all thanks to the grass game im itching all over . seriously i cant stop scratching and having sensitive skin totally sucks . urghhhhhh its DAMN ITCHY NOW lah ! but the game was worth it cus it taught us team bonding so yeah (:




botak jones earned BIG BUCKS


me yvonne chacha & _____(oopsieee)


HAHAHAHA ! i regretted not belaying you =D

aftr a month of dryness, its finally time to get wet .
IM BACK TO SEA !
NE ended early so i went trng with cai .
well 1 out of 4 sprints i did, its more of a swimming lesson for me actually =(
got pretty pissed when, dan -"hsinyu this is not a swimming lesson"
nono u cant expect much when i stayed away for so long .
but seriously i felt very stable today, dont know why i cappedcappedcapped .
and the saviours of the day goes GUOLIANG and ENKAI haha .

school's perfectly fine today and im suddenly in love with my class .
right not exactly in love but still growing to like and i finally opened my golden mouth =D
they're pretty nice&fun ppl, ihopeso .
both tuts in the morning added up to a mere one hour so we had 3 hours of break .
slack = GOSSIP
and thts how we're became bonded, esp there's so much interesting stories in TEP tht practically the whole world but not me knows .
gossiping IS the root of bonding unfortunately, oh dont you somewhat agree ? (:

anw, before the clock strikes 12 and cinderella turns into a maid again, let me say,
im 18 for two months !

mygoodness, how time flies .
we were partying our ass away flying to toilet for you-know-what (:

HELLLLLLP !
life's in a jeopardy now .
im having lotsa mixed feelings for evrything, and i really mean ALOT .
the feeling of hearing unpleasant things which shake you finally awake from your own world totally sucks .
thanks for waking me up, tho in a hurtful way .

its so hard to be myself .
and suddenly i wondered what's the true me actually.

wished i hadnt replied you -the perfectest ending .
wished i hadnt joined kayaking .
wished i hadnt stepped into NYP at all .
faggot .

and so what if im bitchy ah-lian bimbotic self-centered and whtever you can say ?
why not tell me things that i dont know ?

i'm over you (((:

damn this short-lived happiness .


enough of those whatsoever nonsnese, let's post some joy .

make my heart accelerate