Saturday, June 30, 2007
you
shone my bad glooooomy day with your <3
LOVE YOU (:
people come and people go
where bonds were forged
where bonds were built
where bonds were broken
and where bonds were destroyed .
its gonna be yours if its meant to be;
even when you aint there
no use holding on to an empty shell
and carry on with facade .
BUT, i cant bear to let go .i wish i was as decisive .__________________________________________
oh hunny bunny~
i might not be as hot as YOU (if you really think you are)
at least i dont have rojak characters
at least i have no masked personality like your make-ups do
at least im the unique special me and u're not
so dont go around feeling so ever confident .
cus u're just deluding yourself .
silly gurl .
screeeeeeaming at 11:13 PM
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i dont know how to start this entry right now .
okay let me count to ten first .
i was taught to do so in CS when one is pissed .
one two three four five six seven eight nine ten .
*take a deep breath .
today's so fucked up .
started off the day by being late, OVERSLP again .
yeahyeah oversleeping is just an excuse, u can always sleep earlier blahblahblah . i didnt say it was a reason either, thts the reason why i prefer not to be asked of .
im seriously putting lotsa effort trying to be early for trng for example packing my bag the day before no matter how tired i am cus i know if i dont i'll be SUPER DUPER late for trng .
others might not see it and i dont see a need to show it but im definitely much more punctual than before -thts a FACT .
and i realised im always being pinpointed for the late queen in evrybody's eyes. no matter how many times im early, it just take that ONE particular time to be late and thts it . JUST ONCE for the"walauuu hsingyee again" eyes to be read and questions like "why are you always late" start popping out .
why dont i see this scenario happening on those who were and are still late, why only ME ?!
anw, i did 200 push-ups again .
so as you can see, im ALWAYS late indeed . whatever .
rowing was damn horrible too .
i didnt let it happen purposely so that i could rest SOOOO MANY TIMES on the pontoon .
as if i told my arms to ache .
uh-huh im the laggiest among the lags, being the only senior still capping like nobody's business cus i rided late on K and PA race had to come so untimely when the rest could sprint and kick asses on K i had to paddle so damn hard on T manuveuring through strokes instead of the rudder .
it might be excuses to you guys-"u can always take the initiative to go down and row more often", but hello i dont put kayaking as my top priority unlike you guys . u can train seven days a week for all i care but that doesnt mean i dont have to follow suit . i want the sport to be part of my life not a BURDEN .
who wont wish to sprint with the team, who likes to lag behind ?
okay enough said .
shit, too much tears shed for this entry .
I MISS ANJU badly ! =//
Labels: fucked up trng .
screeeeeeaming at 2:18 PM
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Wednesday, June 27, 2007
today's another horrible day .
tried so hard rammimg PM notes into my brain but somehow it just can get stored in .
wore slippers cus i snapped my sandals for playing soccer in class . i know thts veryvery dumb .
anw, no slippers was allowed or else WARNING LETTER and i cant afford ANYMORE warning letters please . so i ran alllllll the way back to locker and borrowed anju's shoes without her permission . three minutes to and forth, i think thts fast !
true enough, PM ica was like SHIT with brain jams adding on .
tell me how you'ld feel if you see your testpaper and the only reaction is to OPEN MOUTH and STARE, when you only know how to do the last two questions out of eight .
i didnt go trng today, tht explains why im blogging now .
feel so hell tired as if sleeping wont help anymore .
just dont feel like going anywhere and doing anything except stoning .
PMS made me feel this way, so maybe u'ld like to point your fingers at it not ME .
screeeeeeaming at 4:43 PM
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Sunday, June 24, 2007
didnt go trng nor church but SLEEEEPT like a beauty .
its been 3months..sooooo long since i clocked 14hours of sleep !
slpt at 10plus and woke up at 1pm, it feels totally shiok but i paid i price for it. cus i look damn weird the whole day for sleeping too much . my left double eyelid dont seem doubled, looks sth like single with lotsa lines . AND ITS DAMN UGLY OKAY!
made me so no mood to go out so i did housework .
im the best housewife u'ld ever find okay, HAHAHAHA .
but unfortunately i just HATE doing it . they just makes me feel so pek chek- the unbearable heat, bending up and down with beads of sweat trickling down dripping evrywhere .
so irritating .
and employing the part-time cleaning auntie is a total waste of money, i can see piles of black gold almost evrywhere and she only wipes the living room but not my piano .
so, i changed my bedsheet, vacuumed all the rooms, wiped tables and my beloved piano .
its soooo shiny now, really shining =]
did so much, slacked so much BUT didnt touch my book and CS ICA is tmr and im soooo dead tired now !
hate it hate it totally HATE IT lah =/
screeeeeeaming at 11:11 PM
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Saturday, June 23, 2007
what horrible morning i had:
- hp low batt and auto turned off=no morning wakeys and alarm so i woke up late .
- was supposed to bring those barang barangs to trng but thankgod im smart enough to call . if not i would have murdered anju gurung !@#$%^&*
- capped and capped and capped like nobody's business =/
- 150 pushups for TWO freaking minutes late and was super mad at the cab driver giving me the wrong change lah
- additional 50pushups team did tog for a late junior . so its 200 . i almost died okay .
- my watch is spoilt ! thts the horriblest thing i prayed to happen .
anw, i did sth nice - climbed the stairs .
hahah thts the only good thing i can think of, climbing TEN storeys of stairs despite the fatigues suffered during trng .
i deserve a big round of applause shdnt i ? ((:
screeeeeeaming at 10:18 PM
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Friday, June 22, 2007
my pathetic ass is hurting from the aftermath of 6 X 50m lunges ystd but its okay
i'll do more to tone my ass .
get small thighs sexy butts,
say bye to cellulites (:
screeeeeeaming at 2:39 PM
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Thursday, June 21, 2007
gleeeeeee
my day was so made !
im not gonna say it here and its nth BIG DEAL but im just so lalalala happy .
miracles do happen for example bleaching a charcoal ((:
screeeeeeaming at 11:40 PM
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Wednesday, June 20, 2007
dammit i lost my house key AGAIN !
i dont know how when where but i just know it vanished without my permission .
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR !
screeeeeeaming at 8:40 PM
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
woohooooo trng was awesome ystd !
starjumps bridges legraise burpes deeps krunches pushups 90degree-stand .
do u feel your abs popping up ?!?!
HAHAHAHA i know u all are love me now, thank me yeah ((:
yawned seriously non-stop during class today cus im so goddamn tired and aching all over . but i feel shiok .
went tanning even tho gpy PANGSEH me !
that horrible fish .
i realised i reallyreallyREALLY hate the sun now . so much tht i tanned like for only ONE hour and scrammed home =[
and i heard abt gen's arm, again .
sigh its really so cursed .
gen, me, then gen again .
and i can totally uds how she felt .
rest well gurl !
screeeeeeaming at 3:48 PM
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Monday, June 18, 2007
YAYYYYYYYYY !
no more JEANS/berms, no more 8.30s, no more of tht fcking face and most importantly I CAN WEAR SHORTS TO SCHOOL !
its only for three weeks tho, but better than nth .
my depression period is finally OVER !
yesssssssssssssss !!
prolly because of my arm, so i guess its sucha blessing in disguise afterall ?
had always been wanting to take a break from sea trngs cus i feel so not motivated and tired of it . now tht i had, i cant wait to go back riding ripples .
my arms are itching to fly in K2 with anjugurung .
anju, remember wht i told u just now okay .
lets JIAYOU tog ! =]
screeeeeeaming at 10:17 PM
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Friday, June 15, 2007
why is it always me
why am i so hell suay
why cant i enjoy a LONGER peace joy and laughter .
all bad things always happen one after another like its never ending . i feel so damn fucking cursed .
things happen for a reason, and it happened just to hasten my decision -thts the only reason making sense to me now .
screeeeeeaming at 4:05 PM
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bitch !
why and how the hell did i let tht happen ?!
its hurting so badly now, how am i suppose to row . dad say's i've gotta rest at least a week, recovery process depends on individual .
i dont want to disappoint anju again and i really really wanna FLY in k2 with her .
urrrrrrrrrgh dammit dammit dammit daaaaaaaaamn !
screeeeeeaming at 9:35 AM
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Thursday, June 14, 2007
whoooooopeedoo !
finally met up with jerine and shuhui aftr thousand years .
wanted to meehoonkuey behind phs aftr 578927520 ziliion years since we graduated but UNFORTUNATELY for some good reason it was down for renovation . damn mood dampening lah ! @#$^%*^
had nth to do so they crashed nyp . hahah okay lah i admit im a LOUSY host BUT bubble tea no pearl, desert stall closed, library cafe closed NOT my fault what ! at least mochi was superliciious . at most next time bring u all to makeOUT session lor TSK =/
anw, i felt so disheartened aftr hearing wht they told me, and i realised im living in my own world .
its so amazing how fast ppl changes, like just a job can get them hooked on almost evrything i thought they could resist . i really cant imagine to see my friends pick up smoking . its just so not them and i hope i wont be able to catch tht scene .
peer influence is CRAP please, seriously excuses . aiya its all about yourself, friends cant influence you if you stay rooted to your stand .
i dont even dare to picture em playing mahjong holding cigars like those typical tom dick harry . omg this is sooooo disappointing .
on a happier note, zouk next wed is ON !
with shuhui jerine and ZHENHUI surprisingly !!!!!!
hahahah wonderful, im so looking forward to it (:
screeeeeeaming at 10:56 PM
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Tuesday, June 12, 2007
nahhhhhh ! here's the sweet sweet picture with the sweetSWEEEET me ((:
hsingyee alene eve =]
screeeeeeaming at 10:17 PM
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goodness gracious ystd i really FELL ASLEEP .
i wanted to finish my personal selling report but seriously went dead aftr garfield ended the conversation. SEE LAH ! hahah and as usual, NAGSandNAGS for lights and lappy left on .
ahhhhhh i hate doing reports, they're so brain damaging. dont know killed how many zillion of my braincells and squeezed how many tonnes of brain juice please . typed like nuts since i woke up till evening just to finish TWO BLARDY reports . rush and rush and RUSH but i still couldnt finish typing =/
thanks chris for delaying the deadline . really thanks, and im so sorry to delay your trng . BUBBLE TEA'S ON ME TMR OKAY ! ((:
and yes, im so sorry for ystd . here's the scenario:
admin & chris left early to KICK FOOTBALL and me for trng without chong's permission and we're sooooooo super damn suay enough to get caught . cus he came up and realised many ppl missing =///// so he ordered us to get back . i guess evrybody had a hard time contacting me, the whole emrs had to wait for my big presence before evryone is dismissed . BIIIG shot indeed . chong shortened our report deadline, evrything to be handed up by 530 today . -end of story .
guess i owe the team an explanation and yes i'll do that tmr .
i still feel guilty though =(
screeeeeeaming at 9:48 PM
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Monday, June 11, 2007
wheeeeee !!!
pictures FINALLY .
PA Paddle Championship 2007
whacked em all !
T2 with gurung .
we're so gonna own K2 for IVP ((:
screeeeeeaming at 12:18 AM
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Wednesday, June 06, 2007
its all screwed up eversince tht day,
all because of you .
cus no matter how hard i try i know i wont get A .
seriously i think im sucha failure . you guys shldnt even have let me be the OIC . and i shld have let chris take over . guess ive disappointed evryone like ive disappointed myself .
i've lost my direction just like i lost my compass in the desert. my order forms werent even done when ALL booths had alr done theirs . yeah some oic indeed .
look what am i doing, just look =/
screeeeeeaming at 9:56 PM
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Sunday, June 03, 2007
PA race came and went ystd and today .
NINE medals won, grats to those .
and those who didnt win for some reason but supposed to, you're all still winners in our hearts . at least you all do know where you stand .
im sorry anju .
i know u expected more than silver,
that splitsplitsplitSPLIT seconds urghhhh .
sorry for the disappointment, even though u said its alright -i know its not .
im very SORRY anju ! =/if only i pulled ONE stroke harder .
sorry sorry sorry, and still sorry =(
Labels: sorries...
screeeeeeaming at 9:14 PM
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