LOVE ASIDE, that's it .

went to visit my grandmother ystd, she was last seen during cny .
my uncle msged me saying he was disappointed none of my family went to visit her blahblah but i didnt reply .
so yes i went up, tried to be nice, grandmother didnt even recognise me .
"see so long nvr come obviously ahma dont remember you"
"you are very busy hor, visiting ahma will eat alot of you time?"
"so busy that u dont have time to reply my message?" well i just say i dont know wht to say and my aunt: what dont know how to reply just say OK lah .
siao bloodyhell waste my msg .
evrybody is so freaking facade, visiting the grandmother only when my uncle's back from US just for show WTF . and im not so free like them i barely have enough time for myself, even if i do its alr latelate night .

it didnt even occur to me tht i shld visit ahma, can u imagine how bad is tht ? like since young i dont have much interaction with her as much as she dislikes me . i guess both me & my mum crossed our fates with hers, i dont even want to go near her she's a total stranger to me . didnt realised i was standing quite a distant until my relatives urged to go nearer, its just a natural repel reaction .

damn srsly hate the mok family fucking kuku .
just wondered why i cld stay so quiet & smiling when i was being bulleted . i can really understand my mum's situation cus apparently they were anti us .
i wish i can disown myself from those idiots .

hey im here im here, i didnt disappear just too busy !
this whole hols im basically hogged by work work & tuition tuition, and clashing my schedules just for some quality meetups cus friends are important (:
clubbed on fri with shuhui, i cant remember which fri it was . with mos closed for renovation, phuture is superduper packed with super long queue as early as 930 wth ! thankgod we bumped andreuw there and jumped queue, else it'll be another disappointment . anw, great night with shuhui it feels like so long since we clubbed tog alr ! and thanks girl for borrowing PAD for me . we were hunting for a potential pad holder outside zouk cus i realised i forgot all abt it on a SECOND day . i call myself a woman, ohgod .
kinda start to be not so fond of clubbing anymore, just suddenly being turned off by those ppl .

newphone newbags newtops kindanewfringe
haha have been shopping quite alot, like basically window shopping and buying without any intention, i've alr spent at least 600 on shopping this month shit .
anw, finally a newphone 3G WITH CAMERA AND BLUETOOTH ! decided on samsung phone at $0 aftr contemplating in the store for ONE HOUR ! cus i figured no point topping up 300 for my ideal nokia phone and losing it soon, i presume LOL . quite loving it now though (:

bought three bags last week, one for mum and two for me .
this guess bag caught my eye for damn long evryday i'll visit the bag aftr lunch with huijun until i finally set my mind on it, so happy lah !
saw this coach wallet im attracted to it at first sight but NO MONEY, its 600+ man sighhhhh i need to save up for my outstanding (soon) bills etc etc .

MOKHSINYU YOU GOT TO SAVE MONEY !

its shocking and freaky coming to sense that so many ppl know about your blog when it started out with barely few souls .
a situation i didnt wish to see, i had absolutely no intention of circulating it .
well girl thanks for letting me know ive trusted the wrong person, thanks for the free publicity .
i really appreciate it very much .

took off today, skipped some sch's orientation thing and SLEEEEEEP TILL 3 !
went to la-kopi with shaun at mac drivethru ystd from 12plus to 4am my parents thought we were crazy ! haha we had so much things to talk about, time just zoomed past so fast lah . im glad we stay so near each other ! (:

and its my dad's birthday today but i totally clean forgotten ! till my mum called and asked for my plans . unlike in the past i'll be bz picking presents for him, too bz i guess . msged him but still i feel so guilty . though i cant see eye to eye in almost evrything he do and we quarrel loads .

my maid's getting on my nerves, the entire family's actually omg seriously just let me complaiiiiiin okay . whtever she does/says is srsly irritating me the hell, and she's freaking sly i feel so scary thinking abt it, much less sharing a room with her, like
1. fuck she tried to sow discord btwn my parents . my mum asked her not to cook the eggs but she went to ask my dad saying mum wants to cook them, and came back telling my mum that sir wants them cooked . my god i cant stand taking a second look at her .
2. barging into my room when im in midst of changing ! i've reminded her upteem times tht i screamed at her .
3. she spoilt my wacoal bra and ironed a hole on my mum's clothes blah blah . its not tht she isnt taught how to treat em with CARE . so now i'ld rather wash my own stuff, keep her hands off .
4. my bro's room is freaking dusty . i went into the room and was freaking disgusted at the state of my old room so i cleaned it speck clean . she only wiped those surface stuffs like table, the dust collected on my cd rack was thick ! obviously she was being slipshort cus bro cant be bothered and she had the audacity to argue and gave me attitude !
5. she used my hairpin then came to me in a sweet tone "ah girl this pin is yours? i used it" like YA OBVIOUSLY IS MINE ! but since u used it im not gng to touch it so YOU CAN HAVE IT roar !
6. she refuses to do things tht my mum told her to, like literally give attitude .
7. all she knows is to cry and cry and CRY, her tear glands are muchmuch more productive than mine lah considering im pretty a crybaby . even mokchenghao has lost his patience, which is bad given his heckcare attitude .
i can just go on and on and on okay ! im gng to do things myself from now on, to adapt to the old life without a maid . cant wait for her to get out of my house fucktard, three more months ! she'd better watch out i aint gonna make life ez for her .

yayyyyy dad finally surrended his mini hi-fi set to me !
he shld have done so much earlier, so tht i can keep my eyes alert on MORE clothes instead ! thanks jane for contemplating at carrefour with me, i know u stalk my blog .
shopping with teammies again, so much fun esp with wongahfook, too bad cheeling isnt there .

shaun drove me to trng so i was early FOR ONCE !
ran with slippers cus i left the smelly shoes in clubhouse, i realised the importance of my runningshoes alr =(
rowed 8 sets of 1click, srsly i almost died while cursing silently . even tho, each set seems to be better lah haha . aftr rowing 10k race ystd we were pretty shagged throughout, but then im happy to say i finally felt my trunks working out right ! like really twist, twist, twist and pull .

teehee im happily blasting music with BASS now love it ! =DD

10km aust champ is finally OVER !
overall safra came in 5th !