went relief teaching at Deyi Secondary just now !
they called me soooo damn last minute at 7:10am when i am supposed to reach at 7.45 .
hahahaha well this is totally impossible even though its only a 3minute walk from my house .
cus im not anybody but mokhsinyee you see =D
i was fretting over what to wear as usual for 45mins so my mum had to make tea pick clothes for me and shove me outta the house like really "hurry wear em and get lost NOW !" .
irritating but i do feel the LOVES lol !

i think deyi's pretty cool, everything is quite similar to phs's learning style except they can paint their own classroom so its like entering different classrooms with a different mood and ambience . they can even bring hp and wear coloured shoes ! -an issue that u can dream on in phs .
and goodness i relieved my cousin's class !
haha we were so shocked to see each other and within seconds the whole class knows im his cousin lah . thts how word-of-mouth works (GEM: so its better to provide positive MOT)

it does feel weird to enter secondary school aftr so long in poly, being described as
cosy-lively VERSUS cold-alone-dead .

today's trng was WHOOPEEDOOOEY
WHACKY-LICIOUS cus anju was there !
quickquick ask me how i made her go trng !!
hahaha well all thanks to my nonstop naggings.
morning called & nagged at anju gurung this morning for like 10mins and that 10mins seemed never ending . how many times i actually wanted VERYVERYVERY much to say 'walau forget it lah do as u deem fit', cup her phone and get mad at her for ps-ing me again and again . but i didnt and im so happy tht all my phsycos + persistance didnt go down the drain but water . guess i'll hafta do tht evry weekend but most imptly i need to make myself feel motivated to go trng first otherwise i'll be as good as a second gurung .

ask me "so how's trng today" !
haha . my answer:
it was reallayyye awesome like totally love it please !
took k2 with anju and we were quite stable, much better than where we left it a month ago .
stable and gliding moderately is the word haha .
i cant wait for nxt sea trng, and in no time we'll FLYYYYYY and kick asses .
just watch us man ! <3

aint gonna repeat those silly mistakes this time in IVP-
the (fill-in-the-blacks) race- like i did for the 2 previous ones .
it really feels damn fucking horrible to cry & regret helplessly,
regretting why i chose to slow down,
regretting why i couldnt perservere,
regretting why i didnt put my 100% into the short FIVEminute race tht ive been trng for months,
regretting letting anju down
-where time could neither be paused, deleted nor undone .
the GOLD was reallyreally within the grasp of our hands by splitsplitsplit seconds and yet we can only see it shining glamorously on others' necks. those so-near-yet-so-far kinda feeling is what i'll never want to feel again .

let's train hard together okay ?
since we made the decision to stay, we gonna make the efforts (my nags hpbills saliva time) worthwhile .
like what daniel and damien say, we'll be that SOMEBODY and not just ANYBODY .
prove it tht its not cheap talks .
IVP here we come, chiong ahhhh ! (:

and to whoever it is, i dont need those discouraging comments of yours . best is you save them to yourself, or better still keep your big mouth shut .
it wasnt easy to convince myself to stay in the team, so i'll appreciate if u can just row your own business and stop commenting like you know evrything when you arent any much better .
dont screw up my determinations .
you might want to measure your skinfold before you talk .
you know who you are .

ohman my ass is hurting like shit from riding tht stupid dinosaur boat .
i seriously regretted VERYVERY much for gng to the paddles@marinabay lah, hate to drag myself up from my eversolovely bed at an ungodly hour just for some dumbdumb media coverage -.-
but then again, actually it isnt a very bad thing cus i feel more bonded with the juniors .
heyyyy juniors, you better agree tht im nice and friendly and im not dao (except trng) !
AND i dont uds how ppl like foojingting can bathe DAMN FKING FAST like thrice my speed .
okay let me tell u what i normally do:
1. shampoo hair
2. condition hair
3. rinse my clothes
4. foam body
5. wash face
6. rinse evrything off
-----PERIOD ------
so it takes roughly >10mins to complete this process what !
conclusion: im not slow, you gurls are fast, and thts why im last .

ANYWAYS .
i think my diet plan for this week is gone case .
mon: chicken chop as supper
tues: 3pcs KFC chicken from the paddle@marinabay thingy and chocolate donuts !
wed: lasagna from nydc
thurs: 2pcs KFC chicken from paddle@marinabay again .
ohmygoodness fats fats faaaaaaaats calling out loud ! =/

YAYNESSSSSSS =]
towned and movied with gpy today -VACANCY .
dammit i hate thriller movies, cus they're neither horror nor action and they're damn sick ! reminds me of house of wax when i nearly puked my long john and begged jerine to leave the cinema like wat i did just now (but obviously both werent successful lah) .
omg my stomach is still churning from the aftermath of scares !
gpy says she'll nvr watch thrillers with me again cus i screamed and made noises non-stop . im like being feminine at the wrong area .
SCREW HER !!!
hahaha nonono u're still loved and i'm gonna watch MANYYYY with u (:

ohya we took neoprints today !!!!!!!!
it's been super long since i took neoprints, say more than half year ? and we nvr take tog for more than two years i realised .
i saw those neoprintswe took last time and it was totally so horribly lian !
finally theres a chance to revive our ah-lian history with those not-so-lian poses . hahahahaha and i cant help it but to say tht we look soooooo omfg cute please !
pictures will be up soon ! =DD

wahhhh its been so long since i can totally forget abt stress evrything and enjoy like ystd and today !
-yayness again -

woohooooo finally went kallang again !!!!!!!
not trng but for rehearsal for paddles@marinabay . bus was supposed to come at 830am but tht shaun tang told us 745, wth made me piah down for nth @#$%^&*
the rehearsal was damn lame but company was fun i guess, with dragons and juniors .
screw tht dinosaur S1, i cant even go straight, i look like the juniors' senior junior who snaked all the way to marinabay for goodness sake .

WALKED to army market with the juniors, its good exercise aftr those fatty KFCs.
i bought this damn nice purple slippers ! for me i think its nice, for the rest it's AUNTY . hahahaha whtever, i still think its still damn NICE (:
me liling vivian walked aaaaaaall the way from there to suntec cus im meeting shuhui there and im so budgetted tht i hafta scrimp on transportation .
hahaha omg i think its damn far lah !

damn shuhui she forbid me to wear the purple slippers !
shuhui and me wanted to queue for donut factory again but its too rush for our DIE HARD 4 with jerine ! urgh i was reallyreally craving for them =/
anw, im so happy to meet up with them .
secondary school friends are still the best bester bestest ! (:
i soooooo love these passerbys <3

yes i finally broke down !
im weird to rejoice over it but i really feel WHOOOOOO now .
mum's nags, lonely day, hair, bloat, stress .
it feels so good to let em all out like a sigh of relieved heaved .
wonderful timing (:

suddenly i realised im just a lonely gurl .
besties gurlfriends blahblah, all these are cock .
evrything is justsofake !
thts what i think okay, i cant help it but to doubt ppl around me .
'forever' isnt in my dictionary .
enjoy the process and dont look back .
are we really close ?
do u really know evrything about me even though i know evrything about you ?
if u think im friendly nice sociable cheerful, then i think u've yet to know me .

tht's how plastic i am .
open your eyes big and LOOK properly .
im sorry this is the real me, unfortunately .

gpy visited me empty-handed NOT !
hahaha your lovely chocolatey donut tasted so sweet with LOVE lah .
it totally made my lonely day please !
ohmygod suddenly i realised how much ive neglected my sec schmates esp peiyu .
the one&only best bestest friend i can find in the world !
well aftrall i should be thankful tht i could have so much time alone today,
ample to have an opportunity to think back what ive did .
so should i thank anju in return for the ps ?

whathefuckman .

anju+hsinyee
we wanted to go zouk ystd but the blardy queue was super long so we went mos .
tht place was just so-so, music's not so nice and the crowd was horrible .
all the nice ppl went to zouk =/
but well, good company's better than anything else .
drank a jug of whisky coke each and the day was made !
hahhahahaha let's go krunk (:

yes gohpeiyu im going krunk !
and u must go too !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

time check: 3:35am

i'm finally done with powerpoints and editing of reports for both cs and pm .
like really finally .
i know im always so slow and draggy and i take eons to finish a thing but im just glad i did it !
however, i skipped training today to complete them, its considered a high price paid okay .

aiya i cant help it .
my attention span is as little as at most two hours during daytime and aftr tht i'll prolly be brain jammed staring at the screen with screen staring back at me .
or i'll just navigate my attention to ______ HAHA .
but then i can concentrate like nobody's business during midnight but ohwell you know my hobby. especially having me to wake up before 9am evryday, i can forget about staying up late .
nevertheless,
i did it today .
hoorays !

it's still so damn difficult to except those realities
esp when they're suddenly slammed right onto your face
im trying hard
i'll brave through all
no worries im not those typical gurls around you
i'll be that one and only strong gurl u'ld remember (:

im seriously going MAAAAAD !
stress trainings projects tuitions, i feel so drained !
i want more sleeeeeep .
somebody nice please transfer some energy to me !
projects pilling pilling pilling hiiiiiiigh up .
this week ive been gng sch from 10am till late everyday xcept tuesday to do projects .
training+projects, i spend more time there than at home . might as well just camp in school, save time for transport .
i rather have stopovers than these idiotic projects .

cut my hair and its like a bundle of dropping dry grass .
best thing is i cant do anything but just LOOK and SHAKE HEAD .
i cant do treatment, i dont dare to apply hair cream .
stupid polyclinic never call me back for my appointment, they're referring me to national skin centre for a jab on my scalp . according to the doctor, its either some virus or my body attack my scalp, all i need is a jab, nothing serious .
but i think it's damn serious, FIFTY CENTS EH !

the one and only good news here is:
im gng to put braces sooooon, like finally aftr 784375312 years !
31aug is my first consultation .
yippeeeeee (:

this is horrigible .
my hair is getting lesser and lesser each day !
im going crazy now .
bad things seem to come after another, like god refuse to let me enjoy some peace .
last time was afro hair and fats .
and then i lost fats and my hair became more of normal -tht's when life was the happiest, evrything is so close to perfection that i pray nothing will go ever so wrong like it used to be .
but then i gained a part of those fats again .
now i lost some of those fats but my hair's dropping tremendously .

why me ?!
ppl ard me are always so lucky .
damned life, urghhhhhhhhh !

Labels: ian owes me these (:

it just dawned on me that today is 07/07/07 .
nahhhh im only ABIT slower, just tht tiny little bit .
goodness 777 couples in singapore got married today, broke singapore's record . congrats to them . and recently so many of my friends got attached aftr one another .
but its seems to be on the contrary for me .
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
im gng to marry a swimmer .
HAHAHAHA (:



-anju to mok
i love anju gurung till bits too !
i'll let her share the big news herself .
lets go babe ((:

this is more than a nightmare to me .
how many times i wished this couldnt be true
how many times i wished my eyes were just playing trick
how many times i wished it was just a dream

tell me its a dream and wake me up from it .
i'll gladly give you extra large lollipops .

this is seriously madness and im gng crazy .
im balding .
this is fucking hell a fact .
i was bathing and saw this fifty cent big empty patch on my scalp from the reflection of the mirror and screamed .
tell me which idiot wont !
ohmygod whathehell exactly happened ?! for the past two weeks ive been experiencing massive hairdrop, twice the normal drop rate to be exact . my mum complains of unclearable hair on the floor .

stress diet and the rebonding side-effect .
im really on the verge of crying now, bad things just never ends happening on me =/

Labels: massive hair-drop

pm test was PHEWWWWWW !
P for passable haha .
i didnt plan and didnt want and didnt feel like studying for it so i slpt like nuts the whole afternoon ystd and clarke quayed till midnight .
im prepared to fail cus i hate this subject . its all THEORIES and memorising . hate it hate it hate it ! it kills my braincells and gets my nerves all screwed up .
but
im sucha lucky ass !
studied for 1 1/2 hours before the test for 4half out of 6 chapters and amazingly almost all tht i bothered to look through came out .
thank god i didnt buy mc and pon the test !
and thank god i bothered cabbed down even though i was late !
*amen .

miracles do happen although its only ONCE IN A BLUE MOON .

wheeeeeee
bumble beeeeeeee .
watched transformers and it was daaaaaamn freaking nice .
rating: onetwothreefourFIVE stars (:


finally towned with peiyu aftr 578493105 years .
WHOOOPS bitch i was late for one damn hour, hahahaha . but i waited for 162 for more than 15mins, if not i could be late for only fortyfive minutes or less . does that make it sound better ?
shopshopshopshop !
i spent almost twohundred bucks this week but idontcare because the goddamn gst is INCREASING to 7% in two days and i dont want to be robbed of so im shopping my ass off nownowNOW ! its NOW or NEVER .
went lucky plaza to get perfumes ! haha its seriously cheap and genuine . she shld really thank me for bringing her to such a nice place . plus the auntie knows me so gpy got FURTHER DISC ! knowing where to buy cheap stuffs makes shopping much more exciting ((:
toured heeren .
top from chaos: the one i wanted to buy on wed with anju . nice and unique !
vest from mu: yay finally have a vest ! we got almost the same one but no worries we aint gonna wear it on the same day (:

im in high spirits today cus its shopping big time with gohpeiyu and image isnt an issue .
felt the honour ?
shopping makes me a happy gurl =]

read and ripped off sth:
LEO - The Coolest oneNice to everyone they meet.
Their Loveis one of a kind. Silly, Fun andsweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person Ever meet! however notthe kind of person you wanna messwith... u might end up crying...

alene did sth on my bloodgrp:
People with AB type blood are mysterious,thoughtful and definately strange. You have probably noticed that your brain does not work the same as other people right? But you don't care what other people think of you and like to do your own thing.

she thinks it totally describes me, my weird habits .
HAHAHAHA .

why do i feel im of different frequency with the team ?
its something ive never felt before until we've all become seniors .
somehow it gets stronger as time passes by .
ssomething's missing or wrong out there & things dont feel the same anymore .
or isit just me; yes we're all moving on and improving, only maybe in a different direction for me .
probably this is the difference: some people can just give up evrything for the sport but i cant and i wont . nevertheless im expected to do so .
and when expectation are set but arent met, tht's where things go wrong .

the team is dominated by guys except two gurls .
and apparently im the only one who's not able to be all abt trng trng trng, gyming gyming gyming and rowing rowing rowing .
"but if jt can, why you cant ?"
scuse me firstly im not her . she has her own perception and i have mine too .
appearance do matter to me okay, i cant afford those big muscular arms and small boobs . i believe she feels this way too, just that im more particular abt it . or put it this way -im not prepared to sacrifice .
forget it, this is a gurl thing that guys wont understand .

all the loves to derek
<3 ((: