the cremation, family friends and even strangers cried
strangely the closeness was present, partially due to watersports being a one big family .
he's gone, reallyreally gone for good =( but aint spiritually .
even his death has touched ppl's life, not to mention alive .
reuben's such a jewel, i'll remember him (:

his dad mentioned 'cherish' .
we all know we shld, but how many ppl actually practice it ?
till we lose it and feel the pinch .
then cry and regret, whats the point ?

so im gonna sit here and wait for santa claus to visit me, giving it up just like this ?
talk abt cherish,
oh shoot those egos please .

went to the wake, its real, i believe now .

listened to his music on youtube again, freaking nice and im still amazed by the way he plays . it felt like just afew moments ago jingting showed me the youtube link with super great enthusiasm .
he was the idol back in kallang, we'll be like whoaaa reuben this reuben that .
yes, was and will still be held high in our hearts .

urgh .
dont know why i keep thinking of his death, those struggles .
and i dont know why am i so affected by it like i dont even know him in person .
for the past one hour i've stoned in front of his friendster and youtube replaying those pieces .
my efma tut has been lying in front of me since two hours ago without a single question done .

God will bless him, amen .

*whatever, im just gonna ignore .
ignorance can really be a bliss and pretence a rememdy at times .

happy birthday mandy !
yay she's finally 18
went to her surprise party done by geoffrey + pies (except me) and i felt the bliss for the both of them
seriously im happy for you amanda (:

why bother to beat about the bush when you could tell that to my face .
wassup with passerbys ?
i always assume its mutual that distance and communication arent an issue
not tht we've nvr talk abt it, and i thought u understood all along .

srsly felt so damn pissed when you say i spoilt your day like wth u guys are shopping away and didnt even bother to tell us making us wait endlessly like there's no tmr .
yaya im self-centered i can be late but others cant, WHATEVER tell me about it .
i didnt u'ld take it so personally cus it was meant to be a joke .
well i guess it just goes to show how well we know each other .
i kept telling myself tht its your phone batt low but now im totally convinced you hung up on me, basket .

HAPPY 18TH AMANDA ! =D

and lucks for your veryvery last paper today .

totally forgot tht we have interview with starbucks, i planned to go home IMMEDIATELY aftr sch to sleep, this is how tired i am lately. anw we didnt enter starbucks cus the feeling just isnt there . hhaha so we detoured to coffee bean .
interviewed at coffee bean, i think im accepted =D
why the sudden interest, some ppl might think . and i dont look like one who's willing to work at such places for tht little income .

the fun part was chilling and shopping with jerine, and buying a top which both of us agree that its nice in unison FOR ONCE .
wats interesting was the fun that wasnt called for, i love this kinda impromptus (:

stepping into town today makes me feel revived
so long since i was able to shop and chill .
how i long for one day when i have time to spend and money to shop with nth holding me back . i'll just be myself feeling comfortable with the person im out with, no pretence and facades made .

im still waiting for my pay to be credited to pay my hp bills
the current accrued balance is 200bucks, damn
so if i go MIA, you know what happened yo .

anw from now on i aint gonna ask for money from my parents except for the allowance. srsly hate to and feel so awkward evrytime i do so , ego inside me's making me feel like a loser .
so im going to work to support myself and survive whatever comes .
i want to be independent again and spend my OWN money like how it used to be .


hang on babe, u'll do just fine (:

i've just survived through mktg proj thanks to 2 consecutive thons .
im suspecting tht those wrinkles are forming .
3 test this week + 2 tests follwing week then im done with ICA 1 .
FIVE projects for ICA 2 .
who says poly is slack ?
i'll stone whoever who says that man !

good morning chirpy birdies !
987 just played mari-kitah, so long since ive heard that !

im damn awake at this ungodly hour not cus im back from clubbing but cus im chionging project . well i would be glad if its the latter but nono im quitting the unhealthy lifestyle =D
drats ive been doing this monotonous thing since aftrn and i slpt for barely 2hrs -thankgod my lovely brother's damn efficient to wake me up, but he was soooooo irritating tht i felt like punching him . still, thanks dude .
okay, im expecting myself to stay awake till fri .
so cool yo !

mktg proj this week + 3 tests next week
dont talk to me when you see me on msn till follwing week kay
i'm PROJECTING & STUDYING.
well if my determination can last that is (:

i just read the team's blog, and i could literally smell the spirit once again
when those days when our passion were at brim chionging enthusiastically with all our minds hearts ARMS, anju can you feel it ?

suddenly i have the urge to go back for trng and WHACK
i want the best of both, i want to go back .

im so pissed now cus i spoilt my eye liner !
i wanted to sharpen it but no sharpener so i decided to use penknife .
but not only its totally blunt, it looks like some shit which is totally unusable now .
damn everytime i see my dad do like so easy .
d&t is definitely not my cup of tea =/

wtffff i got c+ for csc, fucking unfair okay !
and i cant be blamed for failing to meet my quota cus im handling sucha BIIIIIG data with difficult customers ALONE, they shld try it before they grade .
seriously screw the supervisors inside out .
faggot !

but thankgod my gpa's finally above 2 now, else i swear i'll write in to the mgmt .

Friendster Horoscope for November 6, 2007
Leo (Jul 23 - Aug 22)

The Bottom Line
The focus in your life should continue to be on your relationships now, not work.

In Detail
Today, the focus in your life should continue to be on your relationships. Specifically, this is a great day to make a reconciliation and get back to a better time with someone. Leaving things in the past is easy to do -- all you have to do is agree to let bygones be bygones. Keep focused on the good parts of how you feel and on the great possibilities for the future. Your emotions may be close to the surface, so don't be surprised if some of them bubble up unexpectedly.

im trying to, and i suppose i've already done so ?

jog jogging jogged (:

im back from the emo jog, and im still sane and alive yeah .
yes im feeling so muchmuchmuch better now yo !

30mins - 6km, 50krunches .
im on my way to jog those fats OFF =D

apparently 18hours of uninterrupted slp isnt enough .
but 3pm till 8am was total shiokness please .

anw, the week started BADLY .
1) almost late, i mean i WAS late
2) forgot to bring pencil case and specs
3) didnt study for ICT quiz so yes i FAILED
4) malfunctioned brain blabbered nonsense tht made a fool of myself & kept evrybody laughing
5) I LOST MY CLIP =(((((
6) shldnt have went tpy, shld have just take 855 with chit
7) felt so fking lousy tht i cried on bus

i lost my clip lah !!!!! srsly im sad, really . thts one of the beloved property of MHY . =/ but thanks patrick-piggy-ng-yi-yao, for willing to retrieve it but to no avail .
walked past tpy mrt to interchange and i dont know why i was carrying this hope -tht i'll bump onto him . i can foresee anju gurung slapping me for saying this =(
i really regretted not taking 855 with chit landing somewhere near yishun . am i stupid or am i just dumb, faggot .

calvin you know what ? ur msg made me feel so hopeful ystd tht i woke up with a smile today . i prayed hard to get it right but sad to say, its just aint my day .

on a happier note, im fully booked this week . means i have lesser time to brood & think . but when evrything's planned so perfectly, sth'll definitely crop up and spoil the fun . SRSLY EVRYTIME . im saying this cus it came true, dammit ! im sorry to be straight, i mean dont give me last minute notices .

gonna run ltr to evaporate those pissing pieces of fustration .
well, i'll keep my fingers & toes CROSSED .

i dont uds why my family always link things up with MONEY .
"if you dont do laundry then dont expect me to give you extra allowance"
"if u're gng clubbing then i'll cut half of your allowance"
"fine, if you need money dont come and find me"
blahblahblah .

money money money, wassup with the dont-do = no-money theory lah .
my mum feels tht i only talk to her when i need money .
so damn irritating please but its true to a certain extend .
and i think i shldnt be blamed solely cus they made things happen this way .

fuck lah seriously cant wait to get a job and support myself .
i hate to open my mouth to ask for money .

damn lah ystd and this morning i was damn happy that i swear i could be the happiest person on earth .
the nxt moment im emo-ing like nobody's business .
screw those hormones in the body .
i hate moodswings and why it happens only on gurls .

HAPPY 18 ANJUGURUNG !



the allrounderlove whom i'm glad to meet in NYP, the best gift from kayaking .
every little tad bit of us is so similar
it always happen tht we'll be gng through the same thing coincidentally
somebody i could do almost practically evrything -study club sports shop chill, whats not ?
she's the babe i'll donate my love unselfishly for ((:


those were the kallang days


best partner





in and out of the team it doesnt matter ((:

zouked last minute, the night was damn fun !
one graveyard and 2 1/2 flambo .
time zoomed so fast like we havent even dance enough then lights on alr .
seriously both of us looked hot, really =DD
i know you enjoyed your countdowntoyourBIIIIIG day .