mood: dejected

trng's bad, real bad ystd .
injured my right arm again, kinda blacked out -my name, ming's voice, polo black, warm water and medicated oil is all i remembered .
ambulance came but i insisted to go home at sgh before doctor came . i know im dumb, but i wasnt thinking right then .

and i cant row for the pa race this weekend .
wtf, race is on sat and i bloodyhell injured the arm on thurs .
to think i was so looking forward to this race but now the perfect picture's obviously smeared, the one year anniversary with anju and the chance to row with nyp's all GONE !

im feeling so darn ever miserable right now
the last time i cried this hard was 2007 in sch when i got caught for playing cards in emrs my A flew away .
like as if crying helps lah, fuck .