went to visit my grandmother ystd, she was last seen during cny .
my uncle msged me saying he was disappointed none of my family went to visit her blahblah but i didnt reply .
so yes i went up, tried to be nice, grandmother didnt even recognise me .
"see so long nvr come obviously ahma dont remember you"
"you are very busy hor, visiting ahma will eat alot of you time?"
"so busy that u dont have time to reply my message?" well i just say i dont know wht to say and my aunt: what dont know how to reply just say OK lah .
siao bloodyhell waste my msg .
evrybody is so freaking facade, visiting the grandmother only when my uncle's back from US just for show WTF . and im not so free like them i barely have enough time for myself, even if i do its alr latelate night .

it didnt even occur to me tht i shld visit ahma, can u imagine how bad is tht ? like since young i dont have much interaction with her as much as she dislikes me . i guess both me & my mum crossed our fates with hers, i dont even want to go near her she's a total stranger to me . didnt realised i was standing quite a distant until my relatives urged to go nearer, its just a natural repel reaction .

damn srsly hate the mok family fucking kuku .
just wondered why i cld stay so quiet & smiling when i was being bulleted . i can really understand my mum's situation cus apparently they were anti us .
i wish i can disown myself from those idiots .