mind's in a whirl now, for many things .

part of me wants to succumb to slacking
part of me is tempted to the swweet escape, you-know
part of me wants to run away
part of me lost the competitiveness
part of me wants to continue sports
part of me plans to get into uni (discretionary of course)

in a nutshell, I DONT KNOW WHAT I WANT period .
the mok now just wants to drink and stare into space with the sweet escape .