wtfffffff shldnt have went trng today .
1. back ached like hell again
2. late
3. fuckinghell lost my water bag
4. bombed by yirui for lateness
5. 853 didnt stop

nabeh sept is really screwed, the month started just so wrong .
got very pissed when shawn capped me and my waterbag disappeared .
down 50 for 3seniors late and juniors taking shortcut .
yirui -"next time if u're late then dont come for trng ."
me out of THREE seniors, always mememe .
wth thts obviously picking on me and you should have save tht blardyhelldamn comment of yours .
stop trying to inculcate your whtever thinking into me .
stop being so self-centered as if evrybody has to be like you .
like ive said upteeeeeeeeen times,
kayaking isnt my life but part of my life
im not all about this sport unlike you and the team
im not all about trng trng trng, rowing rowing rowing, gyming gyming gyming
i aint as motivated as you
i dont have the BURNING passion like you do especially when someone so dear to me left the team .
you wont understand how it feels like cus u're not me and u're always alone .
im trying my best to rebuild whats lost, so please dont ruin evrything tht is revived and jolly well just
shut up -get that hell into your mind .


so i wonder why i went trng when my back is rotting and im late .
i woke up 15mins to trng, why didnt i fall back to sleep ?
my back was aching again i could neither sit nor stand, why didnt i excuse myself ?
because im enthusiastic, i want to row .
come to think of it, i feel so dumb for going today .

ROARRRRRRRRRRRR !